Random Thoughts From My Week Alone

Holy crap, where did my week go? I got almost everything accomplished on my checklist except get my hair cut. That got postponed until next Monday because the hairdresser's mother in law had a stroke out of state. Instead, I replaced it with a 3 hour trip to the DMV to get my address changed on my license. Boy, if you want to feel good about yourself, go spend some time at your local DMV. Between all the douchebaggy high school kids, the senior citizens with canes and hearing aides, and white trash people, you should leave there feeling lucky. Feeling lucky, you say? Why? 1) You aren't in high school, you aren't dressed like an idiot, and you don't act like you are from The Hills, 2) You feel lucky that you are young enough still that you do not have to have the need of a cane or hearing aide, and 3) You just generally aren't white trash.

My sister was home this week on spring break and it was quite nice to be able to spend some time with her. She and I have a relationship where we are close, yet we end up fighting most of the time. I'm proud to report there was zero fighting this week. We went to IKEA together with my Mom, she helped me hang pictures, and she went curtain shopping with me this week.

I finally got curtains up! My apartment has tons of windows for it's shoebox size (I had to buy 10 panels for a studio apartment). I haven't slept in almost a month. I live on a semi-busy street now and there are quite a few cars that drive by all night long. Additionally, there is a mini-strip mall across the street and semi-trucks full of supplies show up early Monday through Saturday. On top of the noise, there are about 3 street lights that manage to shine right into my apartment and create a spotlight on my bed. Dear boyfriend ends up sleeping with a pillow over his face. I ended up buying those thermal lined, black out, noise reducing curtains. They work! It can be a sunny day out and if all the curtains are drawn, I have to turn on a light to read a book. I'm hoping since the windows are ancient that the thermal, energy efficient part of them will kick in and lower my heating/cooling bills. I'm hoping to take some pictures of it as soon as I find my camera.

The boyfriend comes back from his spring break trip to Colorado tomorrow. He has been sending random pictures of the scenery there all week, trying to convince me to eventually move there with him. I keep telling him no because they just had a blizzard there this week. I also keep reminding him I don't do cold weather very well and I don't like to do things outside in the cold. I am also blaming him for bringing back the snow with him. It hasn't snowed here in over a month, yet the day he comes back from skiing, we're supposed to get 8 freakin inches of snow. Mother Nature, need I remind you that Wednesday is APRIL FIRST?!?

Side note, Memphis screwed me in the tournament last night. I was in 3rd place in my pool (out of 58 people I might add) and was in great shape to win the whole damn thing. I really could have used the $450. Stupid Memphis.

Dilemmas

I have a roommate problem. We haven't been getting long at all the past two months or so, and really things haven't been good for the better part of a year. I need to move, but I've got some dilemmas.

Right now, I live basically rent free with the parents. I've done that so I could get my masters to get my pay raise and pay off the tuition for the degree at the same time. On top of working on paying off the undergrad loans which will be there for the next 17 years. Since I'm one of those people who get a 3 month paid vacation every summer, I get paid somewhat accordingly. In other words, I get paid in cardboard peanuts.

I was just recently preapproved for a loan for a house. Good, problem solved, right? Problem with that is, unless I want to live in a total dump with gunshots going off all around me, I can't afford to live in a nice, safe, small, starter house. Well, I could, but then I'd have exactly $3.69 each month left over, and that's only if the price of gas stays below $4. If not, I'm screwed. I don't really want to rent an apartment because I just know I'm flushing my money/cardboard peanuts into someone else's investment pocket. I also can't find a roommate to save my life. I've tried for the better part of 3 years now. No one wants to live with me.

Dear boyfriend keeps changing his tune on the advice he is giving me. He owns his own house. I'm not moving in that house because a)he bought it with his ex-wife, and b) he's refusing to sell it until he's married again so he doesn't end up screwed and homeless. I can't argue with him on that point. One moment dear boyfriend says for me to stay with my parents and keep living with him half the time like I do now. That way I could save an additional good chunk of money for us to put down on a house once we're married. I could deal with this if the whole wedding wasn't far off, but seeing as how we're not anywhere close to being engaged, I can't. Even the half time now in my current residence drives me to tears at least once a week. Then dear boyfriend switches to "buy a house, get out, and I'll move in there with you when we're married." Again, not anywhere close to a wedding.

My parents don't want me to move. If they had it their way, I'd live here forever doing everything they said. They also seem to be imposing a deadline on when dear boyfriend and I should start moving things along. They don't seem to get that we're not ready for the next step. We will be someday, but not right now.

So, thoughts, advice, opinions?